Wyld Creativity: Standing On The Edge

Monday, March 10, 2008

Standing On The Edge

Sometimes you have to push against everything that is holding you back to fight to be hopeful and continue striving for your dreams. Sometimes I feel like there are oceans between me and my dreams and I am worlds away from who I want to be and where I want to be. There is so much that I want to be. I want to be close to God and feel that passion that I had when my life was changed. I feel like If I can have that then everything else like who I am as a person, my passion, creativity and drive will all fall into alignment.
Sometimes I feel so far away from everything I want to be and I am just swimming, swimming and swimming but never reaching the Island.
The Island represents my hopes and dreams who I want to be and what I want to achieve. On this Island I see such a deep close relationship with God, where He is my everything and passion for him is running through my entire being. On this Island I see a woman who is beautiful not only on the inside, with a joyful spirit, strength, courage, determination, sweetness, and steadiness but on the outside with a body that matches the way I feel on the inside. Fit, strong, healthy and beautiful. These are the key elements on the Island of my dreams, Passion and closeness with God is the ultimate most incredible feeling and I would give anything to have that back so that’s first and who I am and the body I have needs to reflect the woman God created.

On my Island is something really big, it’s a vision that the Lord gave me years ago at a time when I was close to Him. This vision on the Island, comes to Life and I have my own magazine that the whole world sees. In this magazine are stories told through art, real life stories, and life changing events that happen around the world about how God has set people free and changed their lives. It has images of hope and life changing stories. It brings a message of freedom to all the people in the world who are chained and bound.

I am not alone on this Island My family is there too. First Kyle is by my side together we are a team in everything we do. He is there for me always and helps me to keep going with all of his incredible love, faithfulness and devotion. He will be changing the world with his unwavering love and passion for the Lord.
He will turn hearts to God with his quiet, un wavering ROCK like character that will hold true in the midst of the most incredible circumstances. Then there is my Mom and Dad who are following their hearts like never before, they are seeping passion and devotion for the Lord. They are like light houses, beaming light for all those that are lost and showing them the truth. On the Island is my sister; she is freer then the freest bird. She flies with only a lightness that can come from the Lord who has lifted every burden from her and it shows as she glides so beautifully in everything she does and draws people to her with the stories she writes, the words fly off the page Shaping and changing the hearts of people. My brother is a force to be reckoned with, His sweet gentle soul and warrior spirit will collide together with his passion for the Lord making him a leader that people will follow. His music will be what bridges the gap and keeps him tender and close to the Lord. People will be drawn to his music; it will soften the hardest of hearts.

On my Island I dance like never before. I am so full with joy and passion that it bursts through my body and I can’t help but dance and sing of what the Lord has done for me. On my Island I am free, I am weightless and my spirit has taken over my heart and filled it to the brim with Love for the Lord and I am on fire and this fire ignites happiness and joy and passion and creativity. It ignites me to do whatever it takes to change the world and spread the news that God has come to bring freedom. On this Island nothing else matters but how the Lord has changed my life and given me a new heart, nothing else matters but the people I love and the chance to be near them, sharing and experiencing their love. On my Island nothing else matters but having a heart that is fully and utterly devoted to God.

I feel like I want to be standing on the edge of my Island but I am still oceans away and the swim is getting harder and the current is getting stronger and I am being pulled away from the Island but then I feel this steady constant yearning in my heart that keeps my body facing forward in the ocean and my arms pushing me forward towards the Island of my hopes and dreams ahead of me. I long to be standing on the edge of everything I have never been before. I long to be standing on the edge of my Island and feeling the sand in between my toes and knowing that I have arrived and I made it to the place that my heart aches to be. I will swim like never before and I will keep on swimming until I reach the Island that holds my hopes and dreams.

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Heidi said...: Hi Heather,

I hope you know that that Island is Eternity and I'm not saying that in jest. Living for that future is something most people do not do so keep going. It is what our deepest hearts long for and when we get tastes of it on this earth we think that nothing can ever compare. Living for THAT future is worth far more than this one.

I also think living for that future will make this present so much better, freer really, and exactly what you wish for with your inner being. Keep Going.

Also - for added inspiration - read (yes read) Randy Alcorn's book Heaven. It was the most exciting, anticipatory book I have read all year.

Love you.

PS: No posts for four months than Bang! Guess you had some pent up words to get out!; March 19, 2008 at 4:48 PM

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The Story of a Prince and a Girl who Dreamed of finding Her Prince.

Once upon a time there was a young woman named Ruby; she lived in a far way kingdom where only the stars in the sky could light the way. The kingdom was tall and made of stone. Inside, it had all of the finest linens and tapestries with winding stair cases, golden mirrors and exotic flowers that stretched the kingdom’s stone walls. The kingdom was surrounded by a large creek bed and had a large wooden draw bridge outside the tall black iron front gates. Beyond the kingdom were many forests, pastures, rivers and hills.

The young woman lived in the kingdom with only her two servants Nigel and Jasmine. They had been with Ruby ever since her mother gave birth to her and have cared for her and loved her since the great royal war that took her family tragically away from her. Years had past since then and Ruby was a young woman now. Since the great royal war she had not seen another person beside her servants. The lands had been deserted as other kingdoms were destroyed and abandoned. No one knew this kingdom existed. It stood in a far off place that only one deserted over grown pathway in the forest would lead to.

Ruby spent her childhood growing up playing with all the animals in the forest, she had names for all of them and would spend her days dancing in the pastures and walking along the creek bed throwing stones into the water. She was content those days as she lived free and enjoyed every tree, every stone, and every pathway near the kingdom. She loved her home but she missed her family and many times she felt alone.

As Ruby grew older she began to stop playing in the pastures and instead she spent her days walking along the creek bed dreaming of finding love and not being alone anymore. Every night outside her balcony she would spend time looking out into the stars and making wishes that one day soon a wonderful man would find the unmarked path in the forest that would lead him to her kingdom.

Nigel and Jasmine were very old now; Ruby took time to care for them and tended to their needs. She would gather food from the garden and make them food to eat and get them blankets to make sure they were comfortable when it was cold. She was not sure how much longer they would live but one thing she knew was how much she admired they’re love for one another and she hold that in her heart for as long as she lived.

It was a warm fall evening; the leaves from the trees were lightly falling as the sun began to set. Ruby was standing on her balcony in her long white silk night gown. As the dark sky began to shine, a light breeze bustled against her gown and her long brown hair blew lightly in the wind. She stood with her hands on the balcony ledge and wished to the stars like she had so many nights before singing” Star light Star bright bring my prince home to me tonight” She stared up into the dark blue sky and began to talk more to the shinning stars.

Just as she was looking up into the sky, talking to the stars a man was following the pathway from the forest that leads to Ruby’s kingdom. He was beginning to approach the edge of the pathway he had began journeying on earlier that day and was about to step on to a beautiful white shiny stoned pebble walk way that would lead up to a draw bridge and to Ruby’s kingdom.

The young man had been travelling for months only eating what he could find along the pathway. Henry was a prince from the golden city of Persia. He was on an expedition when he was captured by rivals and taken to a far away land where he was imprisoned in a place he did not know. Months ago after many nights planning Henry escaped while the guards were sleeping. He thought he would be able to journey home by recognizing land marks but once he had fled the guards he realized that he was further from home then he ever imagined and much to his dismay he did not recognize any of his surroundings. He had been following the sun in hopes of finding his way home. Each day he walked further hoping that one day the pathway would lead him to his family.

Earlier that day Henry had been walking though the forest with large green bushes and fruitful trees around him when he saw a small unmarked pathway that was ragged and old. There were no fruit trees, only old tall trees and an old pebble pathway that seemed run down and abandoned.

He was going to continue to walk on the pathway he had been but something caught his eye as he walked past this abandoned trail. Henry saw a small red ruby attached to a ring lying in between some wet leaves. The sun was shining on it and it glistened and shinned at him. He bent down and lifted the leaves around it away and dusted the ring off and looked at. The ring was prestigious and fit for a princess. He thought about continuing on the main pathway road through the forest but he was drawn down this unmarked pathway. He wondered if this ruby red ring belonged to someone. He put the ring in his pocket and began to walk along the jagged unmarked pathway. He noticed that there were no markings along this pathway so it appeared that no one had walked this pathway for many years.

To Be Continued…

Wyld Creativity

Overcome.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Standing On The Edge

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