Wyld Creativity: Refelctions

Monday, October 20, 2008

Refelctions

It feels so good to be home. Words can’t express the relief I feel being back at home. It’s been tough trying to understand what is going on. Only God knows what should happen with my grandma but it’s hard to sit back and wonder what He is trying to show us through Grandmas Life.

Every day we learn something new and experience something different and we can’t always understand why things happen the way they do but the one thing that is important is to leave things in God’s hands and know that He is Lord and has control over all things. I feel anxious, I feel excited thinking about eternity, I feel a longing to know what is right in this situation, and I feel a strong desire to understand God’s will and I also desire so much for my family to have the support and love they need.

I have so many emotions right now and the great thing about all of these feelings and concerns is that I can rest because the Lord is in control of all things. He knows when it is time for all of us to pass on, only he can know the exact day and hour. It’s so comforting knowing that everything that is too big for me to understand and handle; He can. This gives me so much hope because regardless of our decisions, whether they are right or wrong God is so amazing that He can do anything if that is His desire.

I am so thankful that God is in control, it would be such a scary ride if He weren’t. It seems like we are approaching a new dawn in the sense that our hearts and lives are being changed and opened to a new awakening that God has for us. I know for myself I have been in a drought for over 9 years and it has only been in the last year and more recently the last couple of months that I have felt an awakening happen in my own heart. It has started small like a tiny seed but as the weeks pass by I feel it growing bigger and it’s starting to really leave an impact on the way I think and act. I have no predictions about the future or what will happen but I truly believe God wants to take us out of the dessert and renew us again in a new way from before in order to prepare us for something different. Only God knows the plans He has for us and the world, we just have to trust in Him and know that when we ask God to revel himself to us so we can really know him; He will answer.

At the end of another long day, I know and feel now more than ever that God is so good, He is faithful and true to his promise. So I know that God has heard my prayers and whatever he wants to happen to my grandma is in His hands and will happen in His time. In the mean time I feel like I am just going to pray on my own and lay everything down because there is nothing that I can do to change anything and God is with my grandma every step of the way and that gives me so much hope.
Well I am glad that I came home to spend some time sorting through stuff. All I know for sure is that grandma is loved so much by us all and we are all hoping she is completely restored whether that happens in heaven or during this time while we wait. Whatever happens God is good and He is faithful and we can put our trust in Him and leave our burdens at His feet and He will take care of us.

Its so awesome to just relax a little. It is my time off from school and although all of this is happening I still want to rest and recuperate before next week. It’s a different feeling too being in the comfort of your own home. Our home is like a refuge, a place where we can be comfortable and feel relaxed. I know that tomorrow will be good for me to just stay home and relax, maybe watch some movies and make some yummy lunch and think about some homework assignments. Its been so good to see Kyle too and have his support and love.

I am so happy I have such an amazing family, friends and Husband who are such great support systems. I wish I could talk for hours, I have so many other ideas to talk about but for now this will have to do. One day when I have more time I will sit and talk about so much more. For now, I plan on relaxing for the night and look forward to a nice long sleep in my cozy warm blankets. I can’t wait.

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The Story of a Prince and a Girl who Dreamed of finding Her Prince.

Once upon a time there was a young woman named Ruby; she lived in a far way kingdom where only the stars in the sky could light the way. The kingdom was tall and made of stone. Inside, it had all of the finest linens and tapestries with winding stair cases, golden mirrors and exotic flowers that stretched the kingdom’s stone walls. The kingdom was surrounded by a large creek bed and had a large wooden draw bridge outside the tall black iron front gates. Beyond the kingdom were many forests, pastures, rivers and hills.

The young woman lived in the kingdom with only her two servants Nigel and Jasmine. They had been with Ruby ever since her mother gave birth to her and have cared for her and loved her since the great royal war that took her family tragically away from her. Years had past since then and Ruby was a young woman now. Since the great royal war she had not seen another person beside her servants. The lands had been deserted as other kingdoms were destroyed and abandoned. No one knew this kingdom existed. It stood in a far off place that only one deserted over grown pathway in the forest would lead to.

Ruby spent her childhood growing up playing with all the animals in the forest, she had names for all of them and would spend her days dancing in the pastures and walking along the creek bed throwing stones into the water. She was content those days as she lived free and enjoyed every tree, every stone, and every pathway near the kingdom. She loved her home but she missed her family and many times she felt alone.

As Ruby grew older she began to stop playing in the pastures and instead she spent her days walking along the creek bed dreaming of finding love and not being alone anymore. Every night outside her balcony she would spend time looking out into the stars and making wishes that one day soon a wonderful man would find the unmarked path in the forest that would lead him to her kingdom.

Nigel and Jasmine were very old now; Ruby took time to care for them and tended to their needs. She would gather food from the garden and make them food to eat and get them blankets to make sure they were comfortable when it was cold. She was not sure how much longer they would live but one thing she knew was how much she admired they’re love for one another and she hold that in her heart for as long as she lived.

It was a warm fall evening; the leaves from the trees were lightly falling as the sun began to set. Ruby was standing on her balcony in her long white silk night gown. As the dark sky began to shine, a light breeze bustled against her gown and her long brown hair blew lightly in the wind. She stood with her hands on the balcony ledge and wished to the stars like she had so many nights before singing” Star light Star bright bring my prince home to me tonight” She stared up into the dark blue sky and began to talk more to the shinning stars.

Just as she was looking up into the sky, talking to the stars a man was following the pathway from the forest that leads to Ruby’s kingdom. He was beginning to approach the edge of the pathway he had began journeying on earlier that day and was about to step on to a beautiful white shiny stoned pebble walk way that would lead up to a draw bridge and to Ruby’s kingdom.

The young man had been travelling for months only eating what he could find along the pathway. Henry was a prince from the golden city of Persia. He was on an expedition when he was captured by rivals and taken to a far away land where he was imprisoned in a place he did not know. Months ago after many nights planning Henry escaped while the guards were sleeping. He thought he would be able to journey home by recognizing land marks but once he had fled the guards he realized that he was further from home then he ever imagined and much to his dismay he did not recognize any of his surroundings. He had been following the sun in hopes of finding his way home. Each day he walked further hoping that one day the pathway would lead him to his family.

Earlier that day Henry had been walking though the forest with large green bushes and fruitful trees around him when he saw a small unmarked pathway that was ragged and old. There were no fruit trees, only old tall trees and an old pebble pathway that seemed run down and abandoned.

He was going to continue to walk on the pathway he had been but something caught his eye as he walked past this abandoned trail. Henry saw a small red ruby attached to a ring lying in between some wet leaves. The sun was shining on it and it glistened and shinned at him. He bent down and lifted the leaves around it away and dusted the ring off and looked at. The ring was prestigious and fit for a princess. He thought about continuing on the main pathway road through the forest but he was drawn down this unmarked pathway. He wondered if this ruby red ring belonged to someone. He put the ring in his pocket and began to walk along the jagged unmarked pathway. He noticed that there were no markings along this pathway so it appeared that no one had walked this pathway for many years.

To Be Continued…

Wyld Creativity

Overcome.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Refelctions

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