Wyld Creativity: Back in the High Life Again

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Back in the High Life Again

It's the beginning of a great week. I am sure every week will be challenging now that I am back at school for another semester but I am ready for it.
My goal is to stay on top of the things that usually stress me out and bring me down. I am going to take it one day at a time and I know everything in life will be in reach and a lot more enjoyable then in the past If I can just hang on to each day and make it what It needs it to be.

Life is so much what you make it. Its such a huge obstacle most days to even cope with it, it can be overwhelming, unforgiving and ruthless at times. Joy and Peace on the other hand are these two incredible attributes that kick a bad day of life right where it deserves to be kicked.

It's so easy to be distracted from the things that matter most and I hope that this year I will be able to hang on tight to what matters in this life and not let other things take me on a detour.

We have to be careful, sometimes we have it all together and we feel on top of the world and before we know it it's all gone and we are not the same person we once were. Things happen, life happens and years go by without us even blinking.

There comes a time when we stop and have a glance of our life, where it's been and where it's going. That is a moment for change. A Rebirth, a new Beginning. The beginning to an end.

It's proof that the road ahead will be rocky based on how previous years have been. Life can really take it's grip on us and hold us captive, sometimes without us even knowing. I do believe though, that there is a way to move forward. It is one of the hardest ways but the only way.

That is to trust in God.

I have learned a lot in my life, and I have so much I still don't understand. Everyday it's something new, but one thing I am sure of is God's love for me, everything else seems so fleeting. Where would I be without God's love? He has always been there, helping me back up after I have fallen and rescued me time and time again when I was hopeless. He gave me new life and set me free. A freedom that was so significant I think about it each and every day.

Years ago I was too afraid to trust God with matters of my life that felt dearest to me, I was not willing to listen to God out of fear of what he would take away. I know now that he has always known what was best for me. He has provided every good thing in my life and got rid of all the rest. It's been years, 10 years and I can not get over God's faithfulness. He has never left my side even when I abandoned Him. He is right here again, waiting and willing to be close to me again, even after all that's happened.

It's pretty incredible. What's even greater is life having meaning, Yeah I am sure I felt pretty good in the 10 years in between 1999 and this one..so many incredible things happened during those years a lot of meaningful things... My marriage to Kyle is rocking the charts on that one, Yeah, looking back there were some amazing things that took place but as great as those were, there has always been something greater. It's a void that can't be filled by any ambition in this world. I only reached out and faintly touched it for what must be a second in eternity but to me it feels like a lifetime. Freedom...that comes from Christ. It is the ultimate experience that so incredible, even a short amount of time with it is enough for one to search their whole life to find and embrace it again.

I guess you can say I have been on that journey without even knowing it for all these years but in the last year I have began to reawaken to something more I admit, it scares me to even think about the possibility of things coming together the way God has planned but I know that it's worth it because I have done life without real significance, It got me places but no where like where I was in '99. No where even close.

So this is the beginning of my journey back..but really forward into something so much brighter and more fulfilling then anything in life. I only hope that with God's love I can find my way back.

I want to change, be a new person. Galatians 5:22 says that when you are a new person in Christ, you have the fruits of the Spirit flowing out of you in everything you do.

These are the attributes I long to live my life with. They are:Love Joy Peace Patience Kindness Goodness Faithfulness gentlness & Self-control.

I know for sure I won't be going out to get a tatoo like this person did but I hope that I won't have to try to remember to live these attributes that one day they will just flow through me with ease because I am rooted in them.

I am just going to take it one day at a time..and remember everyday that....It's never too late to change.

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The Story of a Prince and a Girl who Dreamed of finding Her Prince.

Once upon a time there was a young woman named Ruby; she lived in a far way kingdom where only the stars in the sky could light the way. The kingdom was tall and made of stone. Inside, it had all of the finest linens and tapestries with winding stair cases, golden mirrors and exotic flowers that stretched the kingdom’s stone walls. The kingdom was surrounded by a large creek bed and had a large wooden draw bridge outside the tall black iron front gates. Beyond the kingdom were many forests, pastures, rivers and hills.

The young woman lived in the kingdom with only her two servants Nigel and Jasmine. They had been with Ruby ever since her mother gave birth to her and have cared for her and loved her since the great royal war that took her family tragically away from her. Years had past since then and Ruby was a young woman now. Since the great royal war she had not seen another person beside her servants. The lands had been deserted as other kingdoms were destroyed and abandoned. No one knew this kingdom existed. It stood in a far off place that only one deserted over grown pathway in the forest would lead to.

Ruby spent her childhood growing up playing with all the animals in the forest, she had names for all of them and would spend her days dancing in the pastures and walking along the creek bed throwing stones into the water. She was content those days as she lived free and enjoyed every tree, every stone, and every pathway near the kingdom. She loved her home but she missed her family and many times she felt alone.

As Ruby grew older she began to stop playing in the pastures and instead she spent her days walking along the creek bed dreaming of finding love and not being alone anymore. Every night outside her balcony she would spend time looking out into the stars and making wishes that one day soon a wonderful man would find the unmarked path in the forest that would lead him to her kingdom.

Nigel and Jasmine were very old now; Ruby took time to care for them and tended to their needs. She would gather food from the garden and make them food to eat and get them blankets to make sure they were comfortable when it was cold. She was not sure how much longer they would live but one thing she knew was how much she admired they’re love for one another and she hold that in her heart for as long as she lived.

It was a warm fall evening; the leaves from the trees were lightly falling as the sun began to set. Ruby was standing on her balcony in her long white silk night gown. As the dark sky began to shine, a light breeze bustled against her gown and her long brown hair blew lightly in the wind. She stood with her hands on the balcony ledge and wished to the stars like she had so many nights before singing” Star light Star bright bring my prince home to me tonight” She stared up into the dark blue sky and began to talk more to the shinning stars.

Just as she was looking up into the sky, talking to the stars a man was following the pathway from the forest that leads to Ruby’s kingdom. He was beginning to approach the edge of the pathway he had began journeying on earlier that day and was about to step on to a beautiful white shiny stoned pebble walk way that would lead up to a draw bridge and to Ruby’s kingdom.

The young man had been travelling for months only eating what he could find along the pathway. Henry was a prince from the golden city of Persia. He was on an expedition when he was captured by rivals and taken to a far away land where he was imprisoned in a place he did not know. Months ago after many nights planning Henry escaped while the guards were sleeping. He thought he would be able to journey home by recognizing land marks but once he had fled the guards he realized that he was further from home then he ever imagined and much to his dismay he did not recognize any of his surroundings. He had been following the sun in hopes of finding his way home. Each day he walked further hoping that one day the pathway would lead him to his family.

Earlier that day Henry had been walking though the forest with large green bushes and fruitful trees around him when he saw a small unmarked pathway that was ragged and old. There were no fruit trees, only old tall trees and an old pebble pathway that seemed run down and abandoned.

He was going to continue to walk on the pathway he had been but something caught his eye as he walked past this abandoned trail. Henry saw a small red ruby attached to a ring lying in between some wet leaves. The sun was shining on it and it glistened and shinned at him. He bent down and lifted the leaves around it away and dusted the ring off and looked at. The ring was prestigious and fit for a princess. He thought about continuing on the main pathway road through the forest but he was drawn down this unmarked pathway. He wondered if this ruby red ring belonged to someone. He put the ring in his pocket and began to walk along the jagged unmarked pathway. He noticed that there were no markings along this pathway so it appeared that no one had walked this pathway for many years.

To Be Continued…

Wyld Creativity

Overcome.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Back in the High Life Again

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