Wyld Creativity: In need of rest.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

In need of rest.

I find it hard to keep going some days. It’s 7:30am and I am at school, Kyle needed to drive to work today so he could leave on time to make a dentist appoitment so here I am. I have been struggling the past couple of days to keep on going with my early morning wake ups, bible reading and workouts. School has been stressfull and demanding..I feel like I am running on empty with not enough sleep and not enough time in the day to just relax. It’s incredible how our bodies can continue to adapt to hard situations and accomidate us when we continue to push it.

When I think about “the perfect” senerio for feeling better I know right away what it would be…a whole month without school or work to just do my routine with comfort and ease. At the same time I wonder if I actually had that if I would be motivated to do it or if I would feel like it was okay not too. I think I would be more up for doing it but I guess we’ll never know!

Im listening to this song..its main line is “ You’ve got to give it, give it what you’ve got” and I think that’s what I am supposed to do ..give what I’ve got even if it’s tired…discouraged and hopless. To me that’s how I feel when I don’t reach my goals. I think the key thing that I am learning is to not let that discouragment overtake me into breaking away from my goals and dreams. As soon as I do that based on past experiences the dream really does fade away because once your stop trying you stop any opportunity for scuccess to happen.

I think I just enouraged myself ahhh… I hate when you just want to hang up the towel and you find a small nugget of inspiration or truth..just enough to make you want to keep going. It’s kind of annoying. I can say today any inspiration I have is in my mind..I can’t feel anything right now I’m just so tired..my eyes can’t even really see this screen..I’m just typing ..So whatever inspiration
I find I hope it will be enough to impact my body to move along with it.

I don’t know, I’m feeling pretty confident right now inspite of everything that I can keep on soaring above all the obsitcles underneath me. I’m ready to keep on going.. I hope you are too..

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The Story of a Prince and a Girl who Dreamed of finding Her Prince.

Once upon a time there was a young woman named Ruby; she lived in a far way kingdom where only the stars in the sky could light the way. The kingdom was tall and made of stone. Inside, it had all of the finest linens and tapestries with winding stair cases, golden mirrors and exotic flowers that stretched the kingdom’s stone walls. The kingdom was surrounded by a large creek bed and had a large wooden draw bridge outside the tall black iron front gates. Beyond the kingdom were many forests, pastures, rivers and hills.

The young woman lived in the kingdom with only her two servants Nigel and Jasmine. They had been with Ruby ever since her mother gave birth to her and have cared for her and loved her since the great royal war that took her family tragically away from her. Years had past since then and Ruby was a young woman now. Since the great royal war she had not seen another person beside her servants. The lands had been deserted as other kingdoms were destroyed and abandoned. No one knew this kingdom existed. It stood in a far off place that only one deserted over grown pathway in the forest would lead to.

Ruby spent her childhood growing up playing with all the animals in the forest, she had names for all of them and would spend her days dancing in the pastures and walking along the creek bed throwing stones into the water. She was content those days as she lived free and enjoyed every tree, every stone, and every pathway near the kingdom. She loved her home but she missed her family and many times she felt alone.

As Ruby grew older she began to stop playing in the pastures and instead she spent her days walking along the creek bed dreaming of finding love and not being alone anymore. Every night outside her balcony she would spend time looking out into the stars and making wishes that one day soon a wonderful man would find the unmarked path in the forest that would lead him to her kingdom.

Nigel and Jasmine were very old now; Ruby took time to care for them and tended to their needs. She would gather food from the garden and make them food to eat and get them blankets to make sure they were comfortable when it was cold. She was not sure how much longer they would live but one thing she knew was how much she admired they’re love for one another and she hold that in her heart for as long as she lived.

It was a warm fall evening; the leaves from the trees were lightly falling as the sun began to set. Ruby was standing on her balcony in her long white silk night gown. As the dark sky began to shine, a light breeze bustled against her gown and her long brown hair blew lightly in the wind. She stood with her hands on the balcony ledge and wished to the stars like she had so many nights before singing” Star light Star bright bring my prince home to me tonight” She stared up into the dark blue sky and began to talk more to the shinning stars.

Just as she was looking up into the sky, talking to the stars a man was following the pathway from the forest that leads to Ruby’s kingdom. He was beginning to approach the edge of the pathway he had began journeying on earlier that day and was about to step on to a beautiful white shiny stoned pebble walk way that would lead up to a draw bridge and to Ruby’s kingdom.

The young man had been travelling for months only eating what he could find along the pathway. Henry was a prince from the golden city of Persia. He was on an expedition when he was captured by rivals and taken to a far away land where he was imprisoned in a place he did not know. Months ago after many nights planning Henry escaped while the guards were sleeping. He thought he would be able to journey home by recognizing land marks but once he had fled the guards he realized that he was further from home then he ever imagined and much to his dismay he did not recognize any of his surroundings. He had been following the sun in hopes of finding his way home. Each day he walked further hoping that one day the pathway would lead him to his family.

Earlier that day Henry had been walking though the forest with large green bushes and fruitful trees around him when he saw a small unmarked pathway that was ragged and old. There were no fruit trees, only old tall trees and an old pebble pathway that seemed run down and abandoned.

He was going to continue to walk on the pathway he had been but something caught his eye as he walked past this abandoned trail. Henry saw a small red ruby attached to a ring lying in between some wet leaves. The sun was shining on it and it glistened and shinned at him. He bent down and lifted the leaves around it away and dusted the ring off and looked at. The ring was prestigious and fit for a princess. He thought about continuing on the main pathway road through the forest but he was drawn down this unmarked pathway. He wondered if this ruby red ring belonged to someone. He put the ring in his pocket and began to walk along the jagged unmarked pathway. He noticed that there were no markings along this pathway so it appeared that no one had walked this pathway for many years.

To Be Continued…

Wyld Creativity

Overcome.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

In need of rest.

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