Wyld Creativity: Late night thinking.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Late night thinking.

It’s 2:15 am and I am up… I am kind of watching Dawson’s Creek I am on the second episode of the third season. I remember this episode a little too much though and I am going crazy feeling the need to talk or hang out with someone. I would love to just stay up all night and talk about everything and nothing. Talk about all the important and not so important things that go on in life.

I don’t know what it is…maybe it’s being out of school and having too much free brain space to think about things normally there is no time to think about or if these feelings are always there all the time and I just ignore them but I can’t stop thinking and wondering about my life and the future and what is going to happen. There is just too many BIG things ahead…I don’t know if I will be ready to handle them. I see friends having babies and making career moves and moving onwards and upwards on the property ladder and that whole world is one I dream of but I feel like it’s out of my grasp.

I know I can accomplish my goals and things will eventually fall into place, I only hope I am up for the challenge. It just feels so complicated… mortgage and property tax…cutting the grass… doing home renovations, running a family…having enough money to make it… holding down a career and a child… Just thinking about it makes me tired.

I always talk about it…so it’s no secret. I want a nice house…One that is pretty reasonable to buy and is a fixer upper but once it’s fixed it’s beautiful. I want an incredible back yard. White lanterns and an in ground pool… I want luscious greenery and plants to encompass the back yard and make it a hideaway.

Right now I am dreaming of living in our amazing house….sitting in the backyard….Sipping on a margarita…. Soaking in our hot tub…. I don’t know what career I have but I have an amazing one and I am relaxing letting all my work worries fade away. Just chilling with Kyle…listening to the grasshoppers chirp… The future is intact and everything is taken care of and I don’t have a worry in the world.

OK. Now I think I am ready for bed.

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The Story of a Prince and a Girl who Dreamed of finding Her Prince.

Once upon a time there was a young woman named Ruby; she lived in a far way kingdom where only the stars in the sky could light the way. The kingdom was tall and made of stone. Inside, it had all of the finest linens and tapestries with winding stair cases, golden mirrors and exotic flowers that stretched the kingdom’s stone walls. The kingdom was surrounded by a large creek bed and had a large wooden draw bridge outside the tall black iron front gates. Beyond the kingdom were many forests, pastures, rivers and hills.

The young woman lived in the kingdom with only her two servants Nigel and Jasmine. They had been with Ruby ever since her mother gave birth to her and have cared for her and loved her since the great royal war that took her family tragically away from her. Years had past since then and Ruby was a young woman now. Since the great royal war she had not seen another person beside her servants. The lands had been deserted as other kingdoms were destroyed and abandoned. No one knew this kingdom existed. It stood in a far off place that only one deserted over grown pathway in the forest would lead to.

Ruby spent her childhood growing up playing with all the animals in the forest, she had names for all of them and would spend her days dancing in the pastures and walking along the creek bed throwing stones into the water. She was content those days as she lived free and enjoyed every tree, every stone, and every pathway near the kingdom. She loved her home but she missed her family and many times she felt alone.

As Ruby grew older she began to stop playing in the pastures and instead she spent her days walking along the creek bed dreaming of finding love and not being alone anymore. Every night outside her balcony she would spend time looking out into the stars and making wishes that one day soon a wonderful man would find the unmarked path in the forest that would lead him to her kingdom.

Nigel and Jasmine were very old now; Ruby took time to care for them and tended to their needs. She would gather food from the garden and make them food to eat and get them blankets to make sure they were comfortable when it was cold. She was not sure how much longer they would live but one thing she knew was how much she admired they’re love for one another and she hold that in her heart for as long as she lived.

It was a warm fall evening; the leaves from the trees were lightly falling as the sun began to set. Ruby was standing on her balcony in her long white silk night gown. As the dark sky began to shine, a light breeze bustled against her gown and her long brown hair blew lightly in the wind. She stood with her hands on the balcony ledge and wished to the stars like she had so many nights before singing” Star light Star bright bring my prince home to me tonight” She stared up into the dark blue sky and began to talk more to the shinning stars.

Just as she was looking up into the sky, talking to the stars a man was following the pathway from the forest that leads to Ruby’s kingdom. He was beginning to approach the edge of the pathway he had began journeying on earlier that day and was about to step on to a beautiful white shiny stoned pebble walk way that would lead up to a draw bridge and to Ruby’s kingdom.

The young man had been travelling for months only eating what he could find along the pathway. Henry was a prince from the golden city of Persia. He was on an expedition when he was captured by rivals and taken to a far away land where he was imprisoned in a place he did not know. Months ago after many nights planning Henry escaped while the guards were sleeping. He thought he would be able to journey home by recognizing land marks but once he had fled the guards he realized that he was further from home then he ever imagined and much to his dismay he did not recognize any of his surroundings. He had been following the sun in hopes of finding his way home. Each day he walked further hoping that one day the pathway would lead him to his family.

Earlier that day Henry had been walking though the forest with large green bushes and fruitful trees around him when he saw a small unmarked pathway that was ragged and old. There were no fruit trees, only old tall trees and an old pebble pathway that seemed run down and abandoned.

He was going to continue to walk on the pathway he had been but something caught his eye as he walked past this abandoned trail. Henry saw a small red ruby attached to a ring lying in between some wet leaves. The sun was shining on it and it glistened and shinned at him. He bent down and lifted the leaves around it away and dusted the ring off and looked at. The ring was prestigious and fit for a princess. He thought about continuing on the main pathway road through the forest but he was drawn down this unmarked pathway. He wondered if this ruby red ring belonged to someone. He put the ring in his pocket and began to walk along the jagged unmarked pathway. He noticed that there were no markings along this pathway so it appeared that no one had walked this pathway for many years.

To Be Continued…

Wyld Creativity

Overcome.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Late night thinking.

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