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Friday, June 19, 2009

Sunny Day


I have today off... I finished having lunch and now I am watching Felicity...
I am disappointed, I did Jillian Michales 30 Day Shred yesterday and I was hoping to do it every day but my calf's hurt and doing it again today would make them worse. I was doing some research online and there isn't really anything you can do to prevent after workout pain, I don't mind it anywhere else on my body but my calf's...the lower part of my legs.. that's the worst because it's hard to walk and work all day when it hurts.

So I am going to have to stick to some other workouts that aren't as painful even though I really wanted to do this one. I wanted so much for this year to be the year that everything changed. It feels like the year is half over and so far nothing has changed. I'm afraid that everything will keep on going like this. I know that it's up to me to change it and I hold all the power to make things happen for myself but it feels so hard.
These two pictures were taken by Kyle. They are so blue, lofty and hopeful. Looking at them makes me feel inspired and happy despite everything that I wish was happening. I don't know what it is about me these day but it's so hard to feel like doing anything. I still have so many dreams and goals and I have this picture of my ideal self in my mind but actually doing what it takes to acheive everything seems so impossible.
Just going to the computer, sitting down and working on some ads has been so slow going. I sit there and I try but I find it so hard to complete anything. I know that practice and persistance is what makes things happen, I just have a hard time getting started. I know that's no excuse though and I'm going to go again and try again to create something. I don't know why something I usually love to do is so hard to motivate myself to do these days. But I have to keep trying.
Well here is to one beautiful day! And some really beautful blue sky's and fluffy white clouds!

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