Love. Such a Good Thing.

Here I am again. I have been thinking this morning about how life has run its course.

It’s incredible how fast time goes by. I was trying to remember how we celebrated each of our anniversaries and I can remember everyone but the second. I know that Kyle got me a beautiful quilt on our second anniversary but I can’t remember what we did. I wasn’t sure on the 3rd but after looking at my blog we saw “Dirty Dancing” in Toronto after having dinner at a Pub. Our First was dinner at Wild Fire restaurant in the Falls and a night a the then Clarion Hotel downtown N.F. Our 4th was probably our best we actually got away and spent a couple of nights in Ottawa and I remember eating at an amazing Italian restaurant there. We just celebrated our 5th over a dinner cruise in Toronto which is easy to remember because it just happened.

I just can’t believe how the years have gone by. It feels like just yesterday it was January 2003 and I was eyeing Kyle in the cafeteria in Surrey B.C during my first semester of Bible College wondering who he was. I was intrigued by him…there was something so mysterious and intriguing about him. It took me what felt like forever to break into his heart and get close to him but really at the time I had no idea just how amazing he really was. Only now do I know and even now I have a feeling I have just touched the surface. I think back a lot and miss those times we shared together. Everything was so unknown and there were so many goals and hopes and dreams to accomplish. It was really difficult making it work but the challenge brought us closer.
It’s really tough right now because all I want is to let loose and dream again like we used to.

I want to have a plan on paper which I have had for so many years…do this by this date…save this much money by this date…to buy this and achieve this and pay off this…doing that has made me feel accomplished and on track. It’s really tough to be hopeful when you don’t have a dream you are striving for. I had a dream this spring to graduate and get a job in Toronto and start a career and that hasn’t happened. I have to believe though that something will happen when the time is right and our dream of having careers and moving up to a highly over priced loft in Toronto and saving money to have a house and start a family will come true one day soon.

In the mean time I love to think back on all of the awesome days Kyle and I have spent together. We have accomplished so much and had so many crazy adventures… fitting our entire life in the smallest U-Haul going only 20KM up the B.C mountains for 2 days driving because the Taurus couldn’t take the pressure and our whole long drive back to Ontario was one for the books and one I will never forget.

I love thinking backing, to the day we met…to all of the highs like moving out to Burlington, Kyle starting his career at Spin Master and walking in the bitter cold every morning to the GO train( we drove every winter after that!) to waking up every morning and saying goodbye to Kyle when he goes to work. I remember it all…our first summer apart…Kyle gave me his necklace that he never took off and I wore it until he came back and started his one year computer program at Hamilton. I remember nights when we rented downtown in the Falls..we would walk late at night across from the Falls and sit on this bench with these square trees over them. Our times here in Burlington…walking down to the water and getting Starbucks drinks. Every other weekend driving to the Falls and I love strip when you get off before going to the Lewiston Bridge and take the Moses Park way to the Rainbow Bridge… There is beautiful fall foliage and taking that drive listening to music is one of my favorite memories.

It makes me so happy to know that God put Kyle in my life to make it better. I am so excited about the years to come that we will experience together. I know that this time in my life is only a time and it will come to an end and things will change and get back to how I remember them best and I am so looking forward to that.