
This week has been great, just as ever week has since moving here. Aside from the Vancouver game 7 loss, this week has been perfect. Well...that and my sister starting Chemo. Sometimes I can't believe that this is happening. How could everything finally be fantastic for me and so horrible for my sister?
This time last year for me was total agony and I don't even want to think about it, Last year was the hardest year of my life. Looking back..after the pain had subsided it took so many months to recover and get back to my old self. If anyone has gone through a tough time like my sister Heidi is right now or how I did last year you know that getting through a period of pain and sickness is terrible yet possible but its overcoming that fear or falling back into sickness and pain that really promotes a challenge.
It took me so many months to get over the fear of feeling that intense excruciating pain again. I had a hard time living in the moment and enjoying the good days because all I could think was ...how long is this going to last? I know that it's only by God's grace that I have been able to let that fear go recently and am now able to enjoy every day for the precious pain free day that it is.
I know what Heidi is going through right is completely different from what I went through but I can relate to unknowings that each day brings and the fear of not knowing what level pain and sorrow tomorrow might bring. All I can say is..One day Heid..The joy and spring in your step will be back and when that day comes, you need to embrace it..let any worry.....fear of the cancer coming back...anxiety...just fade away and let God's joy...freedom and love ...consume you and drive you on forward.
I'm with you sis and I will be seeing you soon. Oh and you should know..I am into reading books now! I really love it, I don't know how I ever wasn't into it! You should be so proud!
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