Wyld Creativity: Dreams

Friday, September 12, 2008

Dreams

My dreams have become full out conversations, and today that conversation woke me up. It's 5 am and I have an hour before I need to start getting ready. I was dreaming a conversation with Kyle and I can still feel the words on my lips. I have to wonder how much of our subconscious is what we are truly feeling deep down. It has to be honest because why would our subconscious lie? It's got me thinking this morning about something that I have thought hadn't mattered that much but maybe it matters a lot to me, if it didn't matter I wouldn't be thinking about it while I sleep.

Dreams are an interesting thing. For me they tell me a lot about what's going on inside of me, sometimes things that I don't want to face. For me dreams tend to be a wake up call, a reminder, a challenge, a realization. What ever they are they really get me thinking and I like to write down what I dreamed right away so that I remember what it was about because usually I forget in a matter of minutes. I wrote down in a separate window what this dream was about so I remember later.

I went to bed feeling let down, I feeling frustrated and tired of trying to build friendships and it's amazing how different you can feel after a night's sleep. Today all of those feelings are gone and I feel like I once again can take on whatever comes my way. It's amazing how that happens. One day you can feel completely down and out and the next you can feel rejuvenated and ready for anything. It's pretty amazing and I am so glad that everyday is new.

When I think about tomorrow I am reminded of a plaque I received when our family left Simcoe Ontario when I was in grade 1. There was a teddy bear on it and the opening words said " There is no Burden you can't Bear tomorrow" and it made sense because there was a teddy bear next to the words. It said other things and I don't remember where that plaque is but I remember understanding the quote because of the teddy bear, it was something I could relate to. That statement is so true. Growing up I remember taking on all of the problems of my friends and people around me, My mom used to call me a burden bearer. I think I have changed since then, I don't feel like I do that anymore but I do take it upon myself to make things happen and bring people together and I try so hard and when it doesn't work out I feel so tired and disappointed. I always say I won't try again and do it again but somehow I always do.

I just love the fact that everyday is a new day and how I went to bed yesterday is not how I wake up in the morning. Isn't that just awesome? I don't know about you but that is a true gift from God. The fact that we can sleep, wake up and start our whole day new just blows me away. It's incredible and I am so thankful for that today. I have been feeling so tired lately. My back has been driving me crazy, it continues to hurt while I am in class and I just feel worn out emotionally. Last night I felt so weak I thought I would give up on everything and this morning I have my iPod in my ears. I am listening to Deleriou5? and my whole spirit and soul feels rejuvenated.

It's so amazing and I know I continue to say that but it really is. It's kind of a huge deal if you really think about it. It's like having a super power only it's something we are designed to have. Imagine yesterday being gone forever and a new day, a new start, a new outlook on life every single day. It's kind of the same with our relationship with God. It makes us new and we could have had years of making mistakes, living a life we would be ashamed to talk about and in one instant all of that can be wiped away and our hearts can be made clean, new and we can be new and get out of bed and be a completely different person. A person with no mistakes, a person with freedom. It's pretty incredible.

So here I am, feeling differently then I thought I would last night. Woken up by a dream and realizing that every new day is a blank canvas. I know what the canvas looked like at the end of yesterday but what will it look like today. It was blank but I can see a beautiful sunrise beginning to appear and I hope my canvas today continues to look the way I feel right now. New and full of Hope and Desire.

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The Story of a Prince and a Girl who Dreamed of finding Her Prince.

Once upon a time there was a young woman named Ruby; she lived in a far way kingdom where only the stars in the sky could light the way. The kingdom was tall and made of stone. Inside, it had all of the finest linens and tapestries with winding stair cases, golden mirrors and exotic flowers that stretched the kingdom’s stone walls. The kingdom was surrounded by a large creek bed and had a large wooden draw bridge outside the tall black iron front gates. Beyond the kingdom were many forests, pastures, rivers and hills.

The young woman lived in the kingdom with only her two servants Nigel and Jasmine. They had been with Ruby ever since her mother gave birth to her and have cared for her and loved her since the great royal war that took her family tragically away from her. Years had past since then and Ruby was a young woman now. Since the great royal war she had not seen another person beside her servants. The lands had been deserted as other kingdoms were destroyed and abandoned. No one knew this kingdom existed. It stood in a far off place that only one deserted over grown pathway in the forest would lead to.

Ruby spent her childhood growing up playing with all the animals in the forest, she had names for all of them and would spend her days dancing in the pastures and walking along the creek bed throwing stones into the water. She was content those days as she lived free and enjoyed every tree, every stone, and every pathway near the kingdom. She loved her home but she missed her family and many times she felt alone.

As Ruby grew older she began to stop playing in the pastures and instead she spent her days walking along the creek bed dreaming of finding love and not being alone anymore. Every night outside her balcony she would spend time looking out into the stars and making wishes that one day soon a wonderful man would find the unmarked path in the forest that would lead him to her kingdom.

Nigel and Jasmine were very old now; Ruby took time to care for them and tended to their needs. She would gather food from the garden and make them food to eat and get them blankets to make sure they were comfortable when it was cold. She was not sure how much longer they would live but one thing she knew was how much she admired they’re love for one another and she hold that in her heart for as long as she lived.

It was a warm fall evening; the leaves from the trees were lightly falling as the sun began to set. Ruby was standing on her balcony in her long white silk night gown. As the dark sky began to shine, a light breeze bustled against her gown and her long brown hair blew lightly in the wind. She stood with her hands on the balcony ledge and wished to the stars like she had so many nights before singing” Star light Star bright bring my prince home to me tonight” She stared up into the dark blue sky and began to talk more to the shinning stars.

Just as she was looking up into the sky, talking to the stars a man was following the pathway from the forest that leads to Ruby’s kingdom. He was beginning to approach the edge of the pathway he had began journeying on earlier that day and was about to step on to a beautiful white shiny stoned pebble walk way that would lead up to a draw bridge and to Ruby’s kingdom.

The young man had been travelling for months only eating what he could find along the pathway. Henry was a prince from the golden city of Persia. He was on an expedition when he was captured by rivals and taken to a far away land where he was imprisoned in a place he did not know. Months ago after many nights planning Henry escaped while the guards were sleeping. He thought he would be able to journey home by recognizing land marks but once he had fled the guards he realized that he was further from home then he ever imagined and much to his dismay he did not recognize any of his surroundings. He had been following the sun in hopes of finding his way home. Each day he walked further hoping that one day the pathway would lead him to his family.

Earlier that day Henry had been walking though the forest with large green bushes and fruitful trees around him when he saw a small unmarked pathway that was ragged and old. There were no fruit trees, only old tall trees and an old pebble pathway that seemed run down and abandoned.

He was going to continue to walk on the pathway he had been but something caught his eye as he walked past this abandoned trail. Henry saw a small red ruby attached to a ring lying in between some wet leaves. The sun was shining on it and it glistened and shinned at him. He bent down and lifted the leaves around it away and dusted the ring off and looked at. The ring was prestigious and fit for a princess. He thought about continuing on the main pathway road through the forest but he was drawn down this unmarked pathway. He wondered if this ruby red ring belonged to someone. He put the ring in his pocket and began to walk along the jagged unmarked pathway. He noticed that there were no markings along this pathway so it appeared that no one had walked this pathway for many years.

To Be Continued…

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Friday, September 12, 2008

Dreams

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