Wyld Creativity: Today- Big Ideas My biggest Nightmare

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Today- Big Ideas My biggest Nightmare

So as I have said in previous posts-

I have been trying really hard to make a life style change and get back on track with my weight loss goals. I have been feeling pretty discouraged though with all my hard work my weight is not budging.

After class the girls and I went to the mall and I don’t know how we got to talking about fasting but we did, Daria who just got her new bible in the mail two days ago had it in her bag and read the scripture about feeding ourselves spiritually. So this brought forth a huge discussion about food and how controlling it is and how we all want to be woman who devotes time to reading the bible, praying and getting right spiritually. We all come from different walks of life and different backgrounds but sitting at lunch in the food court over we decided that going on some kind of cleanse would be good.

I told my friends that my family had all fasted for 40 days and my one particular friend wanted us to start by doing that. She had some good points, how we need to take control of our desires and discipline ourselves to be healthy mentally, spiritually and physically. We all kind of felt that would be too hard. I know it’s possible and it’s a good thing to do in order to focus and get rid of all the distractions but I suggested we start with something smaller. Now that it’s decided I am kind of afraid, mostly because I have never been able to completely say no to some foods for longer then a day. I have never had enough will to resist the foods I love.

I was convinced though that it’s something important we need to do to get control of our lives and what direction we need to point ourselves and we all agreed we want to be woman who exude the fruits of the spirit and that we would take this time begin changing from the inside out to exude those characteristics in our everyday life.

· love
· joy
· peace
· patience
· kindness
· goodness
· faithfulness
· gentleness
· self-control

So starting Monday we are going to try only drinking fruit drinks and eating fruit and raw veggies until Friday to see how that goes. We were going to just fast but I don’t know how up to that I am or if I can even do that, I think I would die! Actually I know I wouldn’t die it just seems to hard. I want to do this to prove to myself that I can be disciplined enough to do it and I really want to be more in touch with the Lord and my spiritual self.

I am so scared just thinking about Monday, I am afraid I am going to fail and I wont be able to do it and I am not sure I have it in me, I don’t want to let the girls down though. I have felt for so long that I just don’t have the strength to do anything and the Will power of a mouse. I want to conquer the part of my mind that says “ It’s just one bowl of chips” I might be pretty miserable when I talk next week or I might be really happy. I know it won’t be easy but usually the thing you are most afraid of doing you should do.
I will keep you posted.

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The Story of a Prince and a Girl who Dreamed of finding Her Prince.

Once upon a time there was a young woman named Ruby; she lived in a far way kingdom where only the stars in the sky could light the way. The kingdom was tall and made of stone. Inside, it had all of the finest linens and tapestries with winding stair cases, golden mirrors and exotic flowers that stretched the kingdom’s stone walls. The kingdom was surrounded by a large creek bed and had a large wooden draw bridge outside the tall black iron front gates. Beyond the kingdom were many forests, pastures, rivers and hills.

The young woman lived in the kingdom with only her two servants Nigel and Jasmine. They had been with Ruby ever since her mother gave birth to her and have cared for her and loved her since the great royal war that took her family tragically away from her. Years had past since then and Ruby was a young woman now. Since the great royal war she had not seen another person beside her servants. The lands had been deserted as other kingdoms were destroyed and abandoned. No one knew this kingdom existed. It stood in a far off place that only one deserted over grown pathway in the forest would lead to.

Ruby spent her childhood growing up playing with all the animals in the forest, she had names for all of them and would spend her days dancing in the pastures and walking along the creek bed throwing stones into the water. She was content those days as she lived free and enjoyed every tree, every stone, and every pathway near the kingdom. She loved her home but she missed her family and many times she felt alone.

As Ruby grew older she began to stop playing in the pastures and instead she spent her days walking along the creek bed dreaming of finding love and not being alone anymore. Every night outside her balcony she would spend time looking out into the stars and making wishes that one day soon a wonderful man would find the unmarked path in the forest that would lead him to her kingdom.

Nigel and Jasmine were very old now; Ruby took time to care for them and tended to their needs. She would gather food from the garden and make them food to eat and get them blankets to make sure they were comfortable when it was cold. She was not sure how much longer they would live but one thing she knew was how much she admired they’re love for one another and she hold that in her heart for as long as she lived.

It was a warm fall evening; the leaves from the trees were lightly falling as the sun began to set. Ruby was standing on her balcony in her long white silk night gown. As the dark sky began to shine, a light breeze bustled against her gown and her long brown hair blew lightly in the wind. She stood with her hands on the balcony ledge and wished to the stars like she had so many nights before singing” Star light Star bright bring my prince home to me tonight” She stared up into the dark blue sky and began to talk more to the shinning stars.

Just as she was looking up into the sky, talking to the stars a man was following the pathway from the forest that leads to Ruby’s kingdom. He was beginning to approach the edge of the pathway he had began journeying on earlier that day and was about to step on to a beautiful white shiny stoned pebble walk way that would lead up to a draw bridge and to Ruby’s kingdom.

The young man had been travelling for months only eating what he could find along the pathway. Henry was a prince from the golden city of Persia. He was on an expedition when he was captured by rivals and taken to a far away land where he was imprisoned in a place he did not know. Months ago after many nights planning Henry escaped while the guards were sleeping. He thought he would be able to journey home by recognizing land marks but once he had fled the guards he realized that he was further from home then he ever imagined and much to his dismay he did not recognize any of his surroundings. He had been following the sun in hopes of finding his way home. Each day he walked further hoping that one day the pathway would lead him to his family.

Earlier that day Henry had been walking though the forest with large green bushes and fruitful trees around him when he saw a small unmarked pathway that was ragged and old. There were no fruit trees, only old tall trees and an old pebble pathway that seemed run down and abandoned.

He was going to continue to walk on the pathway he had been but something caught his eye as he walked past this abandoned trail. Henry saw a small red ruby attached to a ring lying in between some wet leaves. The sun was shining on it and it glistened and shinned at him. He bent down and lifted the leaves around it away and dusted the ring off and looked at. The ring was prestigious and fit for a princess. He thought about continuing on the main pathway road through the forest but he was drawn down this unmarked pathway. He wondered if this ruby red ring belonged to someone. He put the ring in his pocket and began to walk along the jagged unmarked pathway. He noticed that there were no markings along this pathway so it appeared that no one had walked this pathway for many years.

To Be Continued…

Wyld Creativity

Overcome.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Today- Big Ideas My biggest Nightmare

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