It's Tuesday

I feel like a million bucks inside because Kyle has been so awesome to me this entire weekend. It is really funny because somehow this weekend we ended up seeing 3 movies in the theater back to back...I had popcorn for 3 meals of my weekend. This is totally bad for me I know but it's all I ate so it balances out! Saturday we saw "The Edge of Darkness" Sunday we saw " The Book of Eli" and Monday we saw "Avatar, in 3d and on IMAX" It's nuts but we wanted to only see the one movie on Saturday but then we really wanted to see Avatar in the IMAX theater so we went the next day but it was sold out so we say the Book if Eli, and got tickets to see Avatar...all 3 movies were awesome. The Book of Eli is really good, it has a biblical underlying message, about a man who has to fulfill what God has asked him to do, it's really good and well anyone who hasn't seen Avatar is crazy! Because it totally is amazing and you have to see it on the big screen. Every showing is still sold out so buy tickets the day ahead.

So Kyle has been really gracious to me this weekend, I used some gift cards and got some new clothes from H&M but Kyle also let me spend quite a bit of his hard earned cash at the Gap in Toronto on some shirts I couldn't pass up and on a couple of movies...I am so lucky!

SO My Monday appointment was interesting with the orthodontist. I have a lot to talk about and only 5 minutes to get my shoes on to catch the GO train so I will continue this from school...Bye for now!

Okay, I am back at school, and ready to talk some more before the rest of my classmates get here and we begin working on some assignments. The meeting with the Orthodontist was a memorable one, his office was incredible, it was so expensive! Everything from the T.V to the decoration to the fixtures was expensive, I guess this means they do good work! The reason I had to go see him in the first place was because one of my baby teeth got infected because it's pretty much dead and this could happen again unless it's pulled but I can't just pull them because the big teeth above them are lodged up and won't come down on their own.

So after talking with the Doc, he came up with a plan to proceed and this is basically what it involves: First my teeth get fitted for braces, this is important because it will help the new teeth grow into the right place. Then I go to my regular dentist and he pulls the baby teeth...Then I go back to the Orthodontist and he puts 2 fake baby teeth in so I am not toothless...I go like this for about 4-5 months and when they remove the fake teeth if the big teeth have showed at all then this is good, they can physically put something on them to pull them down. If there is nothing showing than I will have to see a surgeon who will cut into my gum and expose them, forcing them to come down.

Either way after all that I will have braces for about 1 year 6 months and my teeth should be perfect, in which case I will have to wear a retainer at night for a couple years after but that is no big deal. All of this sounds like a good deal but the price is almost $6,000..and part of the process is seeing how much is covered through insurance. Most insurance policies cover 50% of the cost up to a maximum number so we have all the papers to submit to find that out and then we will see what our options are. I am not sure if we will get much covered for this but it is something that I need to do so lets hope there is a way.

I think with everything that is going on with me right now physically, it's not the pain or process of healing that is bothering me it's the stress of how we will pay for it. With MS you need to get injections at a minimum of once a week for the first while..this is something that has to be done for life, I am not sure if it's always once a week forever or if it lessens but right now I have no idea how much is covered and how we will pay for that. With all of these things you have to pay out of your pocket first and get paid back later which isn't always convenient. I feel frustrated with everything, I just want to be thinking about different things. I am finding it so hard to be here at school right now, my mind is somewhere else and I have a feeling it will be until I get the results of my next MRI which is not until April 17th. Everything is starting to make me panic, like whenever my arm feels tingly or my legs feel weak...I used to think it was nothing, now I worry because I know these are signs of MS...They are probably all in my head but there is always that chance that it's something more.

I am disappointed too about the summer, Kyle and I have talked a lot about it and we won't be able to go to Newfoundland. We were going to make it work but because we could only go for a week and would have to drive and pay to fly back and spend most of the vacation time travelling we decided we would not be able to go. We are so sad about this because we wanted to spend time with the entire family, we know we are missing out on so much by not going and It will be hard to miss out on seeing everyone but we hope things will work out another time and we will be able to join everyone in a fun vacation. I wish things could be different, but sometimes you can't get evvveryyyythhiinnnng you want! Even though that's the way I would love this to be, all the time!

In other news, we should know on Thursday of this week if there is going to be a strike, so far there hasn't been any resolution or agreement so we will see what happens. I know I could use a break, my heart is so not into this right now and it would be nice to get some rest and catch up on assignments and get my head into finding an agency in Toronto to work for. There is so much that needs to get done and I feel like I am moving in slow motion..Tomorrow night I will be here late as we have this Grad thing, basically graduates of the program come to talk to us about their careers in advertising after Sheridan, there is food and a question period time. I will be so happy for the weekend, I can't wait for the long weekend, Kyle and I have our Valentines meal all planned out for Monday and when I get back to school I really only have to go to class on Tuesday and the strike if it's happening starts on Wednesday so that will be it ...I will be on vacation which I am so ready to embrace!

<---This picture is where I imagine myself at the moment..

I think I will be staying here for the rest of the month!

Other highlights this week, the Olympics starting this weekend- I will be recording this on my DVR. Survivor beginning on Thursday. Watching the Bachelor (also recorded on my DVR) and pitching our story boards to the Television crew on Friday and selecting a crew based on their reels to make our commercial.

Well...It's going to be interesting, I am listening to Sarah Mc Lachlan, "Surfacing" and just hearing this song makes me want to break out into tears. I know I am going to have to be a whole lot tougher then this if I am going to make it through these obstacles that are ahead of me. I am going to have to become the opposite of everything I want to give into. This means working out harder, pushing myself further and emotionally working harder to overcome my limitations and also not allowing these limitations to affect my daily routine. I know I can do all of these things and I will do all of these things with God's help.

Well I think I have talked enough for one morning. it's only 8:30 and there is still so much more to do!

Looking forward to tonight...yummy beef stew for dinner! Can't wait.