Love Reign Down On Me

It’s the start of a new week, So far its feeling pretty uneventful… I am ready to meet with the planner from Publicis tomorrow, that’s all that is happening with me this week. I have nothing new to report, no exciting new things just plain old boring life. I want something exciting to happen…I really do. I want to be making progress, moving forward but it feels like I am going to be in a stand still forever.

I’m watching the first season of Dawson’s Creek. I love getting taken into the whole teen angst world of Joey Potter and friends. Kyle is staying to work late tonight, until midnight...he has a lot of work to do. So I am here alone today, I am going to watch more Dawson’s Creek and the Bachelorette later on. I am going to attempt to stay up until Kyle gets home.

It’s been so nice going to my cousins Jordan and Melanie’s wedding celebrations. I love to see couples in love. It’s incredible to watch that new connection and relationship blossom. It always takes me back to the fall after Kyle and I got married. We experienced so much joy coming home to our tiny apartment in B.C. We didn’t have the cash for a honeymoon and we couldn't’t afford any extras, our money from the wedding went towards our rent and a few essentials, I had to start working the week after we got back and even then, we had just enough cash to cover groceries and rent. It was the happiest time in our lives though, It was so awesome…the routine we had was so perfect for us both. All we needed was each other and we spent all of our time talking about our dreams for the future which seemed a million miles away and impossible to achieve.

All that has changed, we have achieved so many of our dreams, now we are on the right track for the rest of our dreams to come into effect. I sometimes wish we could go back to those days because there was something so exciting about everything be so far in the future. Now we are in reach of me having a career and saving money to buy a house and officially establish ourselves. I miss the adventure of just packing things up and moving and working retail wondering what course to take in school. The dream of having our own house and decorating it and being settled and having a family is an incredible dream but I’m afraid of losing our excitement, we already don’t have much to talk about and I have been trying to think about why, and I think it’s because all of our dreams for the future are in reach, we don’t struggle so there is not much to talk about … we need to make new dreams or have new exciting things to talk about.

So I am sure this isn’t a bad thing, having nothing to talk about. But I hope something happens soon to give us something to talk about. I’m so ready for a new adventure, I can’t wait any longer. I want things to start happening, I’m ready to move and start something new. For now I will just have to try to remain content and keep doing what I can to get these dreams rolling.