
Every time I meet with someone there I feel one step closer to knowing what opportunities are out there. I am hoping for an internship but if anything I hope that the people at Publicis will remember me when they do have an opening and consider me for the job. I am feeling really hopeful about this. It's great experience just meeting with top advertisers so I feel excited about that.
This weekend was awesome, I got to spend some fun time with Kyle which I am always looking forward to. We went up to the Falls early in the afternoon on Saturday to help out at Andrew's place, he is trying to get some things fixed up before Rochelle comes home with Eli. So we painted a bit and moved some furniture. Sunday Andrew preached an incredible message again on the Holy Spirit, he is so gifted as a leader and a speaker, It is incredible to see the Holy Spirit work through him.
I wish I could have been more help for Andrew, I was supposed to go over today and organize his home office but last night I didn't feel good so decided to go home. Today I feel okay, I am sure I would have been okay to stay over night but I let my worry get the best of me. When I feel a little bit of discomfort I am afraid it could turn into a night of extreme pain and I don't want to risk that happening. I know it's hard on Kyle, He has to deal with so much..There is always something and he doesn't get to just enjoy life because I am always breaking down into tears!
I think I just have to trust in God and take it day by day. When trouble or pain does come I have to trust that It wont break me and I can get through it, it's not the end of the world. I think if I can do that then things will be better. It's just so hard to try to put my worry and how I feel aside. I would give anything to be 100% okay and happy and drama free for a month straight. That's a good goal to have and I think today I will try to start doing that. I can't say I won't feel discomfort or pain and I might worry but I have to try my best to be positive and know that I am strong and my life is in my control. I need to do what I have to so that I don't let my insecurities take a hold of my life. I have no idea what the future will be like, next month I start MS injections and I don't know how my body will react to that but for right now I want to live the best that I can.
So today I am going to try to enjoy the day without anticipating pain coming but as if it won't ever come so I can be happy and experience the Joy that God has placed on my heart.
1 comment:
A great goal, knowing that you only need to take one day at a time, and work through one hour at a time. I know you have the strength through the Lord and the love and support of all of us your family, we are praying for you every day:)
Love Mom
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