Wyld Creativity: Dream Away.

Friday, February 25, 2011

Dream Away.

It's been such a rough couple of days and tears still keep coming. It's so tough to lose someone so young, and so full of life. My heart aches for Ladell's family and close friends. I don't know what I would do if I lost Kyle or Andrew suddenly. I'm afraid to let my mind think that because the devastating fact is I don't know if I would be able to survive such an event happening. I try to wrap my head around it and I try to plant myself in that position but it's just too painful and I can't do it. I can't imagine what Rochelle, Lois, Stan, Candace and Andrew are going through, I'm sure the pain and devastation they must be experiencing is paralyzing.

My immediate thought would be to shut down and run as far away as I could to escape the pain. That is how I think I would respond. It's so tough, I still can't wrap my brain around the fact that this happened. Why would God take someone so incredible and young...someone so full of life and someone with a vibrant future of being a husband and father away from us. it's so hard to fathom. I just still feel shocked and so sad that Ladell is gone. I can't even believe it's true. During this time of pain and uncertainty I feel like the Lord is telling me to dream ahead. Ever since this tragedy happened I have been so afraid to think about the future because it seems so fragile and breakable but the Lord keeps speaking to me and telling me that now more than ever is the time to dream big and more than I ever have before.

It's so hard because I just want to cry and stay in bed. I don't want to face such an unjust world. But I feel this urgency that I must embrace every moment of my life that I have and not take any second of it for granted. The Lord is in authority of all things including my life and I need to treasure what he has given and provided to me more than ever.

So I am choosing to dream big when all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry. I choose to dream of being closer to the Lord. I choose to dream of hearing the Holy Spirit speak everyday and being obedient to His voice. I choose to love my husband better and respect and trust him. I choose to do whatever it takes to live a healthy life that is pleasing to the Lord. I choose to trust in God with all of the things I fear. I choose to never give up when the pain gets to great to manage and I choose to love the Lord with all my heart and continue to be obedient to Him at all costs. I choose to keep pursuing a career when hope is dwindling and I choose to continue to challenge myself to do the things that are out of my comfort level. I choose to trust in the Lord when I am afraid of pain, depression and death and I choose to follow and trust the Lord when destruction like this week happens. I choose to dream big and have hefty goals and I choose to have a vision for the future that is pleasing to the Lord. I choose to live and I choose life. I choose happiness...Joy and Freedom. I choose eternal life.

It's so hard to think about the future and think about being happy and joyful when you are in the midst of so much unravelling pain and uncertainty but as hard as it is I am choosing life and choosing to put my trust in the Lord.

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Anonymous said...: Heather, I was up early today to. Thinking and praying for Stan and Lois, Candice, Rochelle and Andrew even little Eli.

There are no words for the ache in my heart for all of them.; February 26, 2011 at 8:04 AM

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The Story of a Prince and a Girl who Dreamed of finding Her Prince.

Once upon a time there was a young woman named Ruby; she lived in a far way kingdom where only the stars in the sky could light the way. The kingdom was tall and made of stone. Inside, it had all of the finest linens and tapestries with winding stair cases, golden mirrors and exotic flowers that stretched the kingdom’s stone walls. The kingdom was surrounded by a large creek bed and had a large wooden draw bridge outside the tall black iron front gates. Beyond the kingdom were many forests, pastures, rivers and hills.

The young woman lived in the kingdom with only her two servants Nigel and Jasmine. They had been with Ruby ever since her mother gave birth to her and have cared for her and loved her since the great royal war that took her family tragically away from her. Years had past since then and Ruby was a young woman now. Since the great royal war she had not seen another person beside her servants. The lands had been deserted as other kingdoms were destroyed and abandoned. No one knew this kingdom existed. It stood in a far off place that only one deserted over grown pathway in the forest would lead to.

Ruby spent her childhood growing up playing with all the animals in the forest, she had names for all of them and would spend her days dancing in the pastures and walking along the creek bed throwing stones into the water. She was content those days as she lived free and enjoyed every tree, every stone, and every pathway near the kingdom. She loved her home but she missed her family and many times she felt alone.

As Ruby grew older she began to stop playing in the pastures and instead she spent her days walking along the creek bed dreaming of finding love and not being alone anymore. Every night outside her balcony she would spend time looking out into the stars and making wishes that one day soon a wonderful man would find the unmarked path in the forest that would lead him to her kingdom.

Nigel and Jasmine were very old now; Ruby took time to care for them and tended to their needs. She would gather food from the garden and make them food to eat and get them blankets to make sure they were comfortable when it was cold. She was not sure how much longer they would live but one thing she knew was how much she admired they’re love for one another and she hold that in her heart for as long as she lived.

It was a warm fall evening; the leaves from the trees were lightly falling as the sun began to set. Ruby was standing on her balcony in her long white silk night gown. As the dark sky began to shine, a light breeze bustled against her gown and her long brown hair blew lightly in the wind. She stood with her hands on the balcony ledge and wished to the stars like she had so many nights before singing” Star light Star bright bring my prince home to me tonight” She stared up into the dark blue sky and began to talk more to the shinning stars.

Just as she was looking up into the sky, talking to the stars a man was following the pathway from the forest that leads to Ruby’s kingdom. He was beginning to approach the edge of the pathway he had began journeying on earlier that day and was about to step on to a beautiful white shiny stoned pebble walk way that would lead up to a draw bridge and to Ruby’s kingdom.

The young man had been travelling for months only eating what he could find along the pathway. Henry was a prince from the golden city of Persia. He was on an expedition when he was captured by rivals and taken to a far away land where he was imprisoned in a place he did not know. Months ago after many nights planning Henry escaped while the guards were sleeping. He thought he would be able to journey home by recognizing land marks but once he had fled the guards he realized that he was further from home then he ever imagined and much to his dismay he did not recognize any of his surroundings. He had been following the sun in hopes of finding his way home. Each day he walked further hoping that one day the pathway would lead him to his family.

Earlier that day Henry had been walking though the forest with large green bushes and fruitful trees around him when he saw a small unmarked pathway that was ragged and old. There were no fruit trees, only old tall trees and an old pebble pathway that seemed run down and abandoned.

He was going to continue to walk on the pathway he had been but something caught his eye as he walked past this abandoned trail. Henry saw a small red ruby attached to a ring lying in between some wet leaves. The sun was shining on it and it glistened and shinned at him. He bent down and lifted the leaves around it away and dusted the ring off and looked at. The ring was prestigious and fit for a princess. He thought about continuing on the main pathway road through the forest but he was drawn down this unmarked pathway. He wondered if this ruby red ring belonged to someone. He put the ring in his pocket and began to walk along the jagged unmarked pathway. He noticed that there were no markings along this pathway so it appeared that no one had walked this pathway for many years.

To Be Continued…

Wyld Creativity

Overcome.

Friday, February 25, 2011

Dream Away.

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